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Thursday, October 14, 2010
Past @ 3:59 AM

The past makes me who i am today.
Well in that case, FUCK MY PAST. I hate who i am today.
Omg, cmon Usmah, you've been dating a bomb of guys this year!
YOU ARE FUCKING DELUDING YOURSELF.
And why is that so? Because you think by that way, you can forget him.
WAKE UP CALL LAH SIA USMAH.
HE TREATED YOU LIKE SHIT AND YOU STILL MISS HIM?
Why is your heart so gullible? Why are you so foolish?
You make up excuses that you're lonely and stuffs, but youre not!
YOU HAVE FUCKING FRIENDS WHO CARE BUT YOU PUSH THEM ASIDE.
You keep saying why don't i have a boyfriend by now?
BECAUSE YOU FUCKING KEEP DATING GUYS AND NOT BEING SERIOUS WITH ONE.
ALSO, YOURE FUCKING PICKY. THERE ARE GUYS WHO WOULD LOVE YOUR COMPANY,
BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YOU CHOOSE TO FUCKING NEGLECT THEM.
You will never get the fucking things you want because God wants you to open up your eyes
and realize who has been the ones who were really there and who really cared.
You deserve better, Usmah. I deserve better.
But for now, i really don't know what i want.
"KARMA'S A BITCH AND SO AM I."
I need time on my own now. I need to face my obstacles.
I can do these shits alone, i'm strong.
Insyallah. Amin.